its been sometime since i wrote something on xanga, well today i decided to write something for everyone to see, although i know that noone sees it...maybe only my 2 buddies and his girl but i feel better writing it out anyway.

yea 2nd time writing the same thing because my pc hang halfway writing it :(

din have time to put in photos...so bare wif it a lil...hehe..anyway those that know me know how i look....

so many things happen to me this year...nothin really good actually...been so down since the beginning and now its the end of it...coming soon..i hope that this spell would be gone soon..i really having trouble to cope wif myself...another words..losing control.

my love life never had been worse...yucks hate it so much now..i felt that my heart stop beating a few days ago. Today i knew that my heart is beating again.i feel the same pain,agony,hate,loneliness in me and this tells me that the world still spins and my heart is beating. my love life is so complicated is not even funny i tell ya...always meeting the wrong type of ppl. now i don't want to think about the future so much.. all i want is present..call me heartless ,bastard or player...anything u like and i dun giv a damn. because i dun wan my heart to stop beating again.

that day i asked a friend of mine.. i say " if u had one wish, wat do u want?" she told me that she wants everything she wants..haha...how ironic that can be, i know that noone will ever be satisfied wif a wish they wished for... i told her quietly..if i had that wish..i wish that i never had a wish because if i did, i would be just another problem for me.y do i need to wish and think so much. we know that wish dun come true everyday.

many ppl i have wronged, and many wronged me...but neither them nor me can judge who is right or wrong.neither anyone else can because there isn't right or wrong. If to be right is not to be wrong then to be wrong is not to be right. i dun wan to judge anything...can never think of the answer..dun think..do something meaningful, something where there is a conclusion and something that is never wrong and never right....the haze so bad here...its clouding my vision too...i started to see things all the same..everything is so ugly....to me..everything is the same...the process is all we cherish nothin else..

well well....been very very bz bz, im doing my internship..now but its ending soon le..atound end of the month..sort of glad

realize i havent been very active on the WWW comunity i decided to post something up..i must really start putting in some IT brains and get updated..i feel so damn slow..(hhmph isit the result of K'' ing )

hehe...anyway..my first task is to format my slow pc..edit my pictures..format my handphone, and i ll start putting some pictures on my xanga..hope my 2 bro on xanga will help me out..i cant seem to get the sizes correct :(

NicK & KelviN pls help me out..   ;(

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i feel so fucked up...with that look and feel...now i think i need to buy some dreamweaver program or some major editing tools...

this feel bad..i juz hate everything...help me GOD...

btw i am broke...thats y i felt everything shouldnt have happen..

Y me...am u special? i doubt it...

well...i juz found out how to change some skin and add something on my page..still kinda new and everything is juz in place...not so fancy like some others..before i start blogging myself in i would like to makesure my place looks better..haha.

well juz added some songs..hope u guys enjoy it..

               well well....woke up early to day and see what i can do to my new page...still in early experimental stage, now i think i found out that im a IT dummy. Learning things a bit slow nowadays..hope to pick this thing up as fast as possible.